Talk?

Hi. I'm sorry I haven't been posting much lately. I did try to post monthly but I failed miserably with that, because I feel like nothing has been improving and I don't want my blog to look as dull as my life lol. So since it's now 2017, I've been thinking about starting over. Well, not really, but I guess I'm just beginning to restrain myself from talking to people who don't matter to me, or those who were once the people I have loved. Since I recently broke off a friendship of 5 years (guess 5 years didn't mean anything to him so) because I felt like I wasn't his friend, and that he never appreciated me being there for him. It's friendship but I still got hurt. The day I told him I wanted us to stop being friends, that was when it finally hit him that he's been taking people for granted. I'm tired of saying "oh we talk sometimes" no if we ain't talking, we ain't friends. Bye.

Anyway...
So why must we talk to them?
I'm a firm believer that when a relationship ends, you can continue talking to them either because you never stopped loving them or you never did. Anyone from my past could try and speak to me for all I care, but I won't be the person to start a conversation or pretty much reply. Why, you ask? Here's why.

When I have something to say, it's either a slow talk to give them a piece of advice for the future relationships, for both of us, because I still love them and wish for the best. Or I give them a piece of my mind and allow them to taste my bitterness, because I don't love them and I wish to hurt them. I could be the one to mend the broken pieces or I could break them even more. Really, I'm scared to find out. I don't want to still be attached and I also don't want to find myself spitting words that hurt people. Whether I still love them or hate them now, why should I bother? Sure they were all I ever wanted in a person and I may have loved them half my life but it's over, it ended, so why should I bother? There's so many things to be said, but what if I were to use the wrong ones? When something ends, just leave it be.

You either stay in love or you move. You move from people who are toxic to you. But if you think you could still give it a try and make things work again, please try. Sometimes what's keeping you away from leaving is that tiny voice in your head that tells you, you need to try just a little bit harder than before, maybe then you get to keep them and all will be good again. Maybe all it takes is a little more understanding, or effort, or trust. But if you tried and you both just end up hurting each other, I think you know what's the right thing to do in that situation.

I've seen so many people who are together, but not in love with each other. It honestly scares me. It scares me because anything could happen in the future and it may include one of us being one of those pairs. We shouldn't be in bed wondering if we still matter to them. No one deserves to be staying up late thinking if the person they love, is still in love with them. No one deserves to feel unloved at all. So if you think you're being played, you're being forgotten...why don't you try to sort things out? Or leave before it ends up being worse? Why wait and get your feelings hurt- only to end up getting mad and angry at them for the whole miscommunication thing. You either talk now or you wait long enough and spit hurtful words.

To love a person is your choice.
It's also your choice to fix things or leave. But just remember that whatever happens, good things await you in the future.