About me.

So, I guess this will be my 3rd blog. I hope this one won't flunk and fail like the last two, just because I forgot my passwords. I could've sworn my password was like, unicornandfairydusts or something ike that. Alright so, let me introduce myself.


My name is Shaza Deanna, preferably called Deanna and I talk, write, sleep. A lot. I'm no-one special, really. Just your typical girl-next-door. I am 16, turning 17 on the 8th of December. I was born in the year 1998, in Johor Bahru but was raised as a city girl here, in Kuala Lumpur. I change schools frequently, like I've been in 3 primaries and 3 high-schools. That was complicated, I know. The main reason why I've created blogs even before this one was to express feelings and thoughts. 140 characters on twitter ain't enough and I get tired of writing sometimes, so I type. I'm here to share my thoughts and...emotions.


I'm not very good at writing stuffs, really. I'm very lame. Dull. I'm pretty lovable. My mind can be a dark place to be in sometimes. I could never really learn to let the light inside until I started reading books and poetry and decided I belong in the lines of the pages. It sounds...lame, I know.


I'm not the brightest among anybody actually, never had been. I honestly don't have any interest in school or studying. About my family, I have a rather painful and bitter past with them. My father passed away due to a severe heart attack on a Sunday afternoon, 23rd September 2013. Just 6 days before my PMR examination. I couldn't focus, I cried every night. I still do. Just, not as often as I used to. But, I still managed to obtain good results. Pretty satisfied with it. It's not easy growing up without the love and tender care from a father, or even a parent. It scares me to think that I'll never be able to feel the loving and heart-warming hugs my daddy used to gave me. He was my best friend and he was my hero. The one who lent me his shoulder to cry on. I miss him.


But anyway, I like poetry, reading novels and that's that. I love to sing, even though I suck at it; pretty badly. I enjoy walking in the rain, I love the smell of earth when rainwater hits the dry ground. I love the smell of freshly baked cookies or anything fresh out of the oven. Like, pizza for an instance. haha. I like being alone, but I also enjoy going out with friends. I enjoy ice skating even though I'm just average at it.


I have two amazing best-friends. Nur Sabrina, and Joelle Rachel. Also known as Joelle Lau but Rachel sounds more sassy. They're both lovely people, just not on the outside. They're hella ugly. But I love them. Dude I am being as honest as I can here. I met Joelle during olahraga, early February 2014 and trust me before this I HATED THAT GIRL. But now that loser has become a big part of my life. I knew Sab since 2013, when we talked about her issues on twitter and somehow I was somewhat like a friend she could vent to, so we became more closer the following year. Up until now, they've been the closest friends I have. Probably the only ones that I trust. Yea I trust others, but won't list down their names here. I keep my circle small, I know, only because it's really hard for me to keep friends and put my trust in them. The last time I did, I got backstabbed. I went from having 7 'best' friends down to 2. But that's alright, because quality beats quantity.


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And so I guess that's it.