Hello and a very good day to those who are reading this now. I know I had been away from blogspot for a long time now, it's because I had so much going on in my head and I didn't really handle things well. I let the hates get to me, get inside my head. I pretty much did decently for my trials examination few months ago and now, SPM has come to an end for me. It has finally come to a complete stop, at least until the results come out.
Honestly, I had written so many posts but they're all in my drafts. Most of them are ugly-written posts about how my life is constantly falling apart. I don't want any of you to read that. But I am sick of pretending to be alright. I am sick of the friends I believed in, who I relied the most on, because in the end they were not there to pick up the phone. I know, it's not like I could speak that time. But for me, I just need to let that certain someone to know that I was hurting pretty badly that I had to call and let them hear my voice crack and the rapid breaths I had to take because my chest was hurting. The only word that comes into my mind now is hurt.
Everyone hurts. Everyone deals with issues. Some people suffer mental illnesses, too. People suffer from break-ups just as much as I'm suffering now. Maybe worse, I don't know. To make things worse, I lost a friend who I looked as my own best friend. Apparently, I was not enough to keep our friendship alive. But it was either me who ditched her for personal reasons or her, betraying me and ditching me for her new friends who she's known for only about 5 months. I guess everything changes, even drastically. But losing people doesn't always mean its a loss, sometimes it could be a gain. Less headache, less negativity, less stupidity and less people to care about. I learned that more than a year ago, but I still find it hard to forget although I have forgiven.
Studies? Boy, delete. I'm currently rotting and dying a slow death at home. I can't work since my mom does not allow me to. But I am helping mom with some of her work stuff, its fun so I don't really mind. I'm also taking my license with my best friend, Sab. My family plans on moving. We currently live in Sunway and my stepdad's at Seri Kembangan. We're moving to either Ampang or Mont Kiara if its actually happening. To be honest, finally. lol. I love Ampang a lot, and I take comfort in tall buildings and city lights. I love driving around at 11pm with my parents since they love taking me for late dinner.
omg this post was stupid and boring lol sorry but I just really dont know what else to share hahaha. i'll try to make a better post next time. thank you for spending your time reading :)
